Observations of My Lifestyle In God’s Word and Outside of HIS Will

The more I get to know God and His Word, the more I realize my life is a 2-edged sword.

I find myself praising God one minute, reading his Word, listening to my favourite gospel preachers, and asking forgiveness of the Lord for my sins.  The next minute I fall into temptation, begin living in the Flesh, and then feel guilty afterwards. The cycle seems to never end and I certainly do not want to live the rest of my life like this!

Today, I decided to make a list contrasting my life in God’s Will and when I am living for myself.

Living for God

1. Inner Joy is released from my Spirit into my Soul
2. That Joy makes me want to reach out to others.
3. Reading God’s Word strengthens me and helps me to overcome fear, sadness, guilt, shame, anger and resentments.
4. I sleep so much better at night; sleeping soundly and having pleasant dreams.
5. Time seems to be added to my day and I can accomplish so much in what seems a short period of time.
6. I smile to others as I pass them by and strangers approach me to talk for no apparent reason.
7. I don’t experience hangovers because I am not looking to escape though alcohol.
8. I experience weight loss because I am out and about doing things instead of isolating myself indoors.
9. My speech with others builds them up instead of tearing them down with disgusting speech.
10. I am able to handle every situations with more success because the Holy Spirit speaks back God’s Word to me.
11. I give thanks to God for everything that comes to my mind, and I pray faithfully each day.

Living For Myself (Out of God’s Will)

1. I become selfish, self-centered, self-righteous, judgmental, and easily agitated.
2. I look at some of God’s children with lust and as objects for my sexual satisfaction.
3. I drink excessively, and lower my inhibitions and morals to the point of disgust.
4. My attitudes become more aggressive.
5. Insomnia plagues me incessantly, and I find myself grinding my teeth during sleep.
6. My time is wasted on distractions such as Internet use, silly arguments, and memories of past wrongs.
7. I no longer smile nor wish to socialize with others; thus isolating myself for long periods of time.
8. No longer do I speak to God or have the courage to ask His forgiveness.
9. No longer can I hear the promptings of the Holy Spirit and God’s Word.
10. Weight gain is inevitable as I become less active and more bitter.
11. I feel more pitiful and far less powerful to invoke positive changes to my situation.

 

I welcome all to know these experiences I go through. It is hoped that it can help someone else who may be going through the same thing.

God Bless!