Walking to work this morning, I remembered being 18 years old and quitting my part time job at a fast food restaurant. Having been off work due to illness for a few months, it was decided that I would not return to work there. While telling one of the Managers not to schedule me for any shifts he told me “Good riddance, and get out”. Being the more shy and humble person I was in those days, I shook his hand, thanked him and left feeling stepped on. However, the thought of seeking my own vindication didn’t cross my mind, nor did I have the confidence to stand up for myself.
In latter years, my confidence grew to the point I became very prideful. I got to thinking about all the ways I had been hurt by people over the years, and made a vow no one would ever be allowed to do that again. With all my strength and to my last dying breath, I would stand up for myself and seek my own revenge when it was necessary.
Once I began studying the Word, I came to the point where I began praying to our Dear Lord to help me break the Pride inside. Ask for what you want from Him, but be prepared that you may get it! I have been tested on many levels since I made that prayer, and to be honest I have not passed all the tests as He would have liked me to.
Today’s test of pride was finding out that a colleague of mine is seeking to be promoted and to take on responsibility of support that I had been doing for many years. It has been hoped that the ground work I had been laying would result in my own promotion into an area I enjoyed very much, and would get me through the last 15 years until my retirement.
Funny thing in looking at the previous paragraphs I have just written, what jumps out at me is all the “I’s” and “Me’s” and “My’s”. In God’s Word we are not to live for ourselves, but to live to serve others and think of them first. There is no room for I, Me, and My in that context.
How I choose to handle this situation will be an effect on my opportunity to pass this new test. The upper management in my company already knows of my aspirations. Whomever is appointed to take the lead and possible promotion, will depend on who Management decides. In recent years I would be trying to control the situation by influencing others or getting upset over the matter.
Perhaps I am supposed to just sit back, wait with patience and with a good attitude, and see how the chips fall?